There are many times that I reflect upon the wisdom I feel within me. The idea or connection to what is true for me. I love to share with others what I have learned over the years & sometimes I get hung up on the fact that there are really no words that I can speak that have never been said before. So to put content out there and then sign my name feels...
well, a bit like thievery.
So why do people like myself keep repeating the things we have learned and why do we feel an urge to keep going? I can only speak for myself so here it is... I am passionate about the life I've experienced, especially since exploring the wonders of recovery & healing. I was baffled by the limitations I put upon myself from a very young age and even more blown away by my ability to change what I perceive into an understanding of true freedom. So yes, I keep regurgitating the things I have gathered over the years of my own research, study & practice. Because I know that I had to hear some things many of times before one day, "IT" stuck. Whether is was the timing, the voice, my mood, the delivery or whatever... I needed someone to say (again) what it was that they had learned to remind me of the light I had been ignoring within me.
I spent a couple years with my first counselor, sometimes going three times per week. It was a relationship that would forever change my life. I learned to trust her, practice her suggestions, read what she told me to read and share everything I had been carrying around on my heart. Looking back, I can see that she was absolutely an angel divinely placed on my path at the perfect time. Her voice, soft face and loving heart what exactly what I needed at that time in my life to feel like I could be honest with myself.
Moving forward from that, I learned later that the trust I was experiencing was not actually her at all... but a trust in myself that no matter what happened, that I was going to be ok. So I worked with several other healers since then. Off and on even up until now. Different mentors, counselors, doctors, coaches, friends, therapists, advisers... You name it... I've confided in it ;) Because this effort was all in the name of learning to know and love who I am in the lifetime.
So today, I regurgitate a lot of information. This information comes from a plethora of experiences, studies, sharings and internal knowings. Sometimes the messages I receive (inner voice/ God/ Higher Self, etc.) are so simple and profound... I will google it, just to find that some famous philosopher said the exact or very similar thing. This does wonders for my ego!
So whether I am sharing my personal experiences about recovery, spirituality, my passion for body movement and deep connection... I am doing it because I absolutely love it and what it has done for me in this lifetime. And I hope that somewhere along the way, it reminds someone else of the light within them.